Friday 20 August 1999


meta-date: 199908200649

Very tired. I have been up for nearly 24 hours now, and bed is another hour away. Didn't go as smoothly as planned. Must keep eyes open - don't want to end up in Bedford again. Hungry as well. Hungry for many things. I am in real danger of falling asleep. Can't think - here's the train. Quiet going this direction - usually that would be a good thing, but this morning I could do with some bustle. No music today - I don't feel the need - first time in ages I've done that. So tired that the seats on the train seem comfortable. I probably won't go straight to bed when I get back - I should do - I only have time for about 6 hours sleep before I will need to get up again. Why do I always get so horny when I'm tired? Waking dreams of naked flesh. Fast to St Albans now.