Tuesday 10 August 1999


Damn, ran out of space for the last entry. I think I was pretty much finished anyway though. I make everything into a crisis. In actuality I have only ever asked about 3 girls out in my entire life - most of the rejection I have experienced has been from things like when I was constantly asked out because of dares at school. Rejection recently has been due to me being drunk and offensive at the time. How could I ever feel confident in a relationship knowing how much I lie to myself? "I lie to myself, but I won't lie to you - honest." I wish I had a bigger capacity for deception, but I just can't do it. I have a logical mind and logic says that you can't expect to get a correct answer from incorrect data.